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Is it too late to move on to HS?

Fifteen years is quite a long time to gain an expertise on something technical but if the current workplace demands that you learn something new and provide expertise, that is something I do feel quite uncomfortable with. I have been comfortable working and sometimes being an expert in the field of environmental science and management. I do have the education, training and work experience to back it up with but what if my job demands that I go beyond it more than just a logical thinking, common sense requirement?

I am not moving on to high school, I am being provided responsibility to manage health and safety concerns. I may have worked side by side with people who have  been experts on that field but what if my responsibility now is to manage that? I remember way back, quite a while I guess when people from outside our technical field were appointed as administrators or managers, specially those who made a shift from the military to our industry…the first negative comments came from people like me, too ingrained in the technical and academic…

Since I am not the person in power, of course I have no choice but to just work my ass up and be the best, now with age things have changed and reflecting on my approach to work, I know this is much closer than coming from outerspace, I still have some hesitation that I may not be the perfect expert on HS even if I am quite confident on the E after all these years.  Drastic changes that I plan to do is take a few learning expeditions on OH&S.  I have attended the mandatory regulatory training and the lead auditor course but I still finding it too shallow to provide any level of confidence in working for the industry. There is this hesitation that I am not going to be the best if something is provided to me in  a silver platter unless I have worked hard for it and gained expertise on it….the opposite is also true…if I am not interested in something….I just don’t put it on my table anyway and let others do it.

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The Academic Temptation

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I am currently being tempted to apply for a PhD Scholarship, I know the rejection feels really really bad and it hurts so much, but I am so tempted to dive back into it.  I have been rejected due to over qualification, they feel my current affiliation with a big time testing, inspection and certification firm does not make me eligible for financial assistance, as if my current salary could pay their big time doctorate tuition fees.  I’m from a developing country, I couldn’t afford that.

Mentioning the word Big Time twice, that is another challenge…time, I haven’t got much of a time to get a PhD locally, I already have a kid in tow who is starting to go into puberty, being a mommy posts a part-time doctorate disaster…

It is almost September 2013 and this is when scholarship announcements for the next school year just flies in to my inbox. I have subscribed for such announcements just in case one institution may be kind enough to offer me a position in their research program with an add on for a studentship.

Oh well, I already had my masters six years ago and that seems ages…or is it the frustration of not having my GHG qualification yet….still EPt(GHG) attached to my name.  It is really tempting to get more education because I feel I am not learning anything new anymore.

Though feeling some sense of financial stability at the moment, it still scares me what lies ahead. I feel so mediocre in my current assignments as if I am not moving forward with confidence.  That sounds familiar. Why do I have wind turbines in this post anyway?

Maybe having those wind turbines means that’s what I have to look forward to. Is it me, is it my office or there really is something wrong with my country because nothing is just moving forward.

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An opportunity is an opportunity

Due to incomplete documentation, my scholarship applications have been unsuccessful, maybe going back to the academe is not my thing. Every time I direct my attention to become an academic, or teaching per se, a minor lapse or glitch always prevents me from further pursuit of that line of work.

I already gained my masters degree more than five years ago and the five years lull have been quite a disadvantage in moving towards a doctorate.  Though that door had closed, I guess a greater opportunity is in place on my part in terms of focusing and polishing my technical skills in GHG verification.

Similarly, I had such an experience in my initial forays into EMS auditing, EIA preparation and any specialized skill I have gained for the past 13 years.  I may feel some jitters and I would initially start questioning my competence, but I guess that makes me a normal person, I have encountered a few who pretend to know a lot, when in fact, they are just as hollow as rotten logs. I would rather be humble and prove myself worthy.

Teaching would have been a lot easier, but whatever force or lets say Higher Power is pushing me towards this highly specialized field…maybe it is for my good, but  that good is quite, hmmm difficult, analyzing that much data could give me such a headache.  Well, at times I would imagine myself working for a non-profit organization or just sitting in an office supporting HSE stuff….but current opportunities are in places where I have to be in fire retardant personal protective equipment…maybe the hazard pay is good, but is it for the good of mankind?

An opportunity is an opportunity, sometimes you have to go through certain paths, though difficult is essential for your growth, teaching is an easy path…but I guess I may be needed somewhere else.

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